"a year has passed, and things have changed."

i really don't know what reminded me of this journal at 5 am.

it's been over a year since my last update, and the title of this entry couldn't fit more perfectly.

-i'm a (community) college graduate as of last week. trying to decide on a 4 year school to attend in the fall.
-while on the subject of college, i was on my school's radio station in the promotions department, and was also the staff photographer. taking a public relations course helped make me realise that i think THAT'S what i want to do with my life.
-i've had a new job since october of 2008. i love my coworkers and love still working in my hometown, but lately they've been pissing me off 'cause they never give me hours. it makes me want to find a different job.
-i barely go to concerts anymore. not my fault, just noone i like enough is really doing anything. but i got a few lined up for the summer that i hope to attend.
-i'll be turning 21 in a few short weeks. i plan on drinking for the first time, but only because my dad wants to take me out, as do my friends. otherwise, it doesn't really interest me.
-i broke up with matt in january, and i've been going out with a different guy, mike, since february. he's two years younger than me, and is definitley different from anyone i've dated in the past (minus the gamer/anime side). but i'm really happy and he's opened my eyes to various things, and i even deal with the fact that he smokes--THAT'S how much i like him (fyi; i've always found smoking a turnoff and it makes me sick). i also love discovering different sides to him that surprise me considering the kind of person he's labeled as. damn labels. we hit a rough patch this past week actually, but we've made it through and all is well. yay.
-friends are still the same. however i've been questioning a few of them, but i'm basically content with them. no matter what, i'm glad they're all in my life and i love them.

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-carter_raposo@livejournal
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i'm also on myspace, facebook, purevolume, and buzznet. but don't expect me to add you unless i know you personally, or at least, know OF you .

take care fellow xanga people.

Currently Listening I-Empire By Angels & Airwaves see related

i won't lie, i forgot i had this thing until recently.

idk why i forgot; i used to come on here like everyday. then again, i also just kinda started to blog less and less. greatestjournal turned into complete crap, so i started using my livejournal, and i update that maybe once a week at most.

well for anyone that still reads this, i'll try and sum up as much as i can on what's happened since the end of my fall semester.

first of all, the spring semester is about over; there's like 2 weeks left. my grades aren't up to par; i went from having my best semester to having my worst i think. spring semesters always seem to be bad; spring '07 i dropped a class and failed one. now for spring '08, i think i'm failing 3 out of 5 classes, precalc part B, history II, and intro to communications. i can't afford to fail anything. i need to step up and excel on the finals. precalc i think i can bring up; my average is a 69, which is 1 point below passing. the other 2, well, im worried; especially with history. my professor sucks, plus it doesn't help i just don't like history class. hopefully i can manage; i usually can manage under pressure; i sure did when it came to my history paper (wrote 9.5 pages the day before it was due...i hopefully find out my grade tomorrow). now with talking about other school stuff, i actually have friends. and it's all thanks to bryan. like, this time, i actually hang with a few people OUTSIDE of school (besides bryan), and i'm talking to more of the crew well, more than i used to. AND to top it all off, i've got myself a boyfriend. his name is matt and this coming friday will be 2 months. i met him at school. actually, through bryan when me and bryan were dating. he's basically the best thing that's happened to me and i've fallen in love for the first time. he's like, the ONLY person i'm the most comfortable around and he loves me for me.

i went to disney world for spring break with trevor and jerry. that was a fun and interesting vacation. it was nice being away from home and from parents. but it sucked being away from matt, especially since it was like, a week after we started going out. however i enjoyed it overall and enjoyed sharing a bed with trevor lol. i wish i could go on vacations more often; not just once every 6 years (this was my first real vacation since i was in disney in 2002).

i'm sick of work. i don't even wanna get into it lol. i got a raise, but not the promotion i was told (and my raise would've been higher). i like the people i work with, i like the new manager, but things there have been changing; how things are suppose to get done, etc. and yes i told them i wanted less hours due to my lacking in school, but to the point of where i'm scheduled for NO hours for a whole week, or i only work 4 hours a week? come on. my paycheck i just got was $48. pathetic. maybe it'll pick up in the summer, and it'll give me something to do since i don't plan on taking a summer class unless i fail one this semester. but i just know that if i stay there for the summer, at least part of it, i'm telling them i want certain days off 'cause i want more of a "set" schedule. plus i don't plan on staying there when the fall '08 term begins. plus with summer, i wanna be able to go away a lot; take random spur-of-the-moment roadtrips, spend a weekend at my dad's, possibly go to cali with the boyfriend & his parents if my mom lets me (oh hey 2 vacations in 1 year!).

in all honesty, idk what else to write about lol. my life is pretty content minus schoolwork and regular work. oh, and the fact that i've like, drifted from kaitlin. at least in my opinion we have. as well as with matt c and figler. i rarely see them anymore. idk what it is. and the fact that i hate being home, but that's nothing new. i have habits i need to change and break. i'm currently on a mission to clean my room; i've started going through my drawers and holy crap i have so many tshirts that are too small for me. i found some jean shorts which trevor is gonna try 'cause they're mens.

i hope i end this semester on a good note and pass my classes. otherwise imma be in deep shit and summer probably won't be as enjoyable as i'd like it to be. plus, it will be hard to top last summer. plus then i wouldn't be able to take 2 classes i want/need to take in the fall. i'm praying everything works in my favor.

Currently Listening Meteora By Linkin Park see related

so i officially completed my 3rd college semester on thursday. i finished at 10:30, however i ended up staying on campus til about 2:15 hanging with bryan and company lol. it was a good way to end the semester too; it was pretty much the most fun i ever had at school and it ended how i hoped it would  (not including the fact that i'm like 100% positive that i bombed my last final since i was praying i'd at least pass lol). it was nice too that i had a great time hanging around considering i had a sucky day there the day before.

i got a C+ in precalc for a final grade though! hopefully i do this well again (or better) in precalc part B next semester. and to think, i did like all of it on my own too . i also got a C in social institutions and an A in intro to art. idk about history or spanish yet. i'm almost certain i at least got a C in history though and i hope to get a B in spanish.

and what did i do on my first day of break yesterday? went to nyc for z100's all access lounge and jingle ball. would have been nice if i had won bsb m&gs though. hell, it'd been nice if i had won m&gs for anyone lol.

not a bad way to start off my winter vacation.

Currently Listening The Black Parade By My Chemical Romance see related

amazing how in a matter of a week, my life goes from being super wonderful back to being lonely and not wonderful.

sure, we never were official, but i feel as if it was a real breakup that real couples go through. i guess it kinda was in a way.

sigh.

Currently Listening Cry for You By September see related

you know how i mentioned life was pretty alright in my last entry?

well, as of this past friday, it's even more alright now. i like where i am, and hopefully it gets even better.